by Cracker (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 1:24 AM
I'm not moving around anymore. I just saw Belle pass thru. Yes, too much. I can't sit down two minutes and start writing. I know it's stress. One minute can't write, now I can't stop. I did finish the poem from one of the pictures you gave me. I started one on the picture you have of the lady under the waterfall, but it took a left turn on me, so I'll let it sit until my mood gets right.
by Cracker (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 1:34 AM
I know, I had to go to stress management once before. I'm thinking about going back for a tune up. I haven't posted that poem yet. I was going too tonight, but then decided to wait. I had two, and couldn't figure out which one I wanted to post. Plus I have to post tomorrow on a poetry site, so I figure I would just do them both at the same time. I'm really suppose to be sleeping now.
by 1manview (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 1:42 AM
I wish I had some way to help you relax to sleep...but I don't...would do it myself sometimes if I did...short of a pill...and I hate that...life is to short to worry about anything..it either is or it isn't...can't do much about shit we can't control...
by 1manview (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 1:47 AM
I have one ...maybe you can use...want me to drop it off at your place?...it's different...I wanted to post it but it was a little much for my place ..lord knows what people would think..
by Cracker (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 1:50 AM
I know, I should be back in the gym. That's what helped me before. I know this will past soon. At least I hope so Sure, put the picture on my blog, I wouldn't want poeple to think bad of you
by 1manview (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 1:59 AM
my kids read my blog and so I kinda watch it...but it gives them a different view of the woman who is their mother and so it has been good in that respect...I'm a real "behind closed doors" kinda gal...you know what I mean...if indian hadn't stopped at your place I might never have had the guts to say anything to you to begin with....borrowed courage
by Cracker (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 2:05 AM
Well thank you indian. I know, what you mean, I'm a third generation preacher son. My kids had no idea about the other side of me. infect, if my closes friends would read any of my poetry, they would not believe, it was me. I don't show people my inner emotions, because they just use it against you.
by 1manview (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 2:09 AM
"I don't show people my inner emotions, because they just use it against you".....that is exactly right...some people mistake tenerness for weakness...and when they find a weak spot...thats where they stick the knife ...you said it all with that line
by Cracker (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 2:13 AM
I 'm a lot like you. But one day I said enough. I stop being quiet, I force myself not to be shy. I was in the army and I was getting kicked around. I was doing more work then most and had the lease about of strips. I went on a tear. After being in the captain office the third time in a week, he ask me what was my malfunction. I cursed him out in a way he couldn't do much about it. Then I asked him, if this was the person he prefer. Because that nice guy wasn't about Sh...T. I had no stripes, no respect, just worked like a dog. Three weeks i had my strip and I slowly found a happy medium to live in. when I came home I had to make some adjustments because I went back to what being the old me. A few lumps later, a broken heart, Hello! You are just too nice, shy, wait for the first strike person.
by 1manview (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 2:25 AM
well people have a habit of kickin you around if you let them..I never gave much ground to that..my weakness is I let myself get to lonesome....my nature runs to melancoly anyway....if I sit on this computer and listen to to much sad music it leads to more and more until it over-whelms me
by Cracker (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 2:34 AM
I notice that. You get into that blue music and can't seem to stop. I know lonely. I know it when you are by yourself. I know it when you are with someone who's not fore filing your needs. Quiet, shy people have it the most. One reason I'm still married. I do love my wife, but when we had issues, I worked hard to straighten them out. Too many lonely times and being used behind me, to wonder if the grass is greener on the other side.
by 1manview (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 2:44 AM
well...I been a widow for almost seven years and I seldom do any thing other than babysit grandkids...it's wearin thin...and some ole boy woke the sleeping lion and life is never easy...so I ride the rollar coaster and hope for the best...maybe I have one more time left in me...maybe not...I'll leave it to the powers that be...try hard not to get to far down...
by Cracker (PM , CC ) on Wednesday July 2, 2008 @ 2:51 AM
I think about that a lot. My wife can be gone tomorrow with her health. Starting over, going through what you are going through. it's not easy. And I'm sure you feel it's your time now, before it's too late. But there are other good old boys out there. Just have to hang in there. Sometimes we look in all the wrong places is true. I knew my wife for six years before I asked her out. To be honest, her brother ask me yo ask her out because he was tired of her bugging him about it. She wasn't my type i keep saying. You never know. It's getting late, I have to get up in four hours, so I better try and get some rest. I enjoyed our talk. I'm going to have to Pm you one day soon. I will post that poem I wrote from your picture this morning. You take care of yourself, and have a good Wednesday. I'll be off the stream by the time you get this, so don't bother to answer me back.
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I thought I was chasin you around..lol..have you wrote anything?...
I wish I had some way to help you relax to sleep...but I don't...would do it myself sometimes if I did...short of a pill...and I hate that...life is to short to worry about anything..it either is or it isn't...can't do much about shit we can't control...
..lord knows what people would think..
Sure, put the picture on my blog, I wouldn't want poeple to think bad of you 
see why I didn't put it at my place?...lordy...burn da Crackers house down
