I come in here tonight with every intention of shootin' the juke box...tired of moanin' the blues..tired of hearin' the blues...and even more tired of feelin' the blues...took myself out for a drive tonight...I've about gone full circle I'm thinkin'...when my kids were little and Butch was gone off to prison and I would be so lonesome and blue I would load them up in my car and drive...sometimes it felt like for days...I drove every highway in the state...most anyway....then when I couldn't drive anymore I would go home..and take them out ...pile them all in bed with me..crawl into my nest of babies and pass out...back then I didn't drink nothin'...coffee and lots of it...it rained here today..a nice hard rain...I saw Jimmy up in town and he pulled into Bass Pro to BS with me and before it was over the a cloud burst soaked us both...I'm still not feelin' good but think maybe I'm better...Butch says thats why I'm sleepin' so much...but we both know better...won't be long and he will be here...I'm lookin' forward to the break...I'm glad we came to this stag of our life where we are friends..he is a good friend...he knows me better than anyone ...I think he really does...he knows me in a way not many people can know me...down where I bleed...he knows I'm bleedin' now and he is bein' a gentle friend...so it's good...good to have him...I took myself to the local greasy spoon and had a bowl of chili...wasn't hungry but thought maybe I had better eat...I don't feel like hangin' around Blogstream much...not that I don't love you all..it's just this mountain that I have to climb is takin more out of me than I thought ....damn the man that ever slows down in front of me again...lessons hard learned are not easy forgot...I learned this lesson the hard way...still tryin' to get through it..but I will...yes..I will..nothin' but a thang...ignornce is not without a price..I'm payin' for mine...but when the dust settles...I'll land on my feet and be a harder trick to pull...well kids...I'm goin to get off here...just stopped in to see what condiction my condition was in...now I know...but I'm not drinkin'...not smokin'...and thats only cause it's dry as a bone here...but I am happy that I'm not wantin to get roarin' drunk...that lets me know I'm still okay in that respect...wouldn't want to go out a knock down drunk...I deserve better than that....even from me...I bought myself a new dress today...a silk dress...kinda loud ..even for me..but I loved it anyway...my grandkids will be here soon and granny can go to bed..you all have a good night and I'll chat at ya later Cracker

this is "Two Socks"...this is the one that likes Cher and Gypy's,Tramps and Thieves...looks a little like a gypsy doesn't she?

 

I'm a sucker for this one...yep..has me right where he wants me...

 

this is my darlin'...she is growin'up fast on granny..

 

 

I was pleased to see she might be just a little full of shit like her grandma...

sorry you guys gotta put up with this...but thats the way it is...I'll listen to this song til...and until then....gloomy mental clouds...I'm searchin' for the sun...hard not to cave in at the gloom...but I refuse....so let me wail it out...thousand miles from nowhere and there's no where I wanna be...ever feel like that?...sure you have...that's why ya blog...don't know what I'm about...maybe I'll hop off and do something to dispell this gloom...what?...lookin' that over...seems slim pickin's today...Bill is such a foul mood boy lately I didn't even stop when I drove by his place today...maybe it's here...blogstream that I will kick this in the butt...just remembered...I went to the house this morning and I found an old work bag of mine there and in it is a table cloth that I was crocheting ..more than half done...my hook and all was there so that was great...it's a pineapple table cloth...round...it will be beautiful...I keep all kinds of bags of work around...quilt pieces...junk I guess...but I need something to do with my hands and so it makes it nice to have a bag of work...found alot of my deer horns...all my feathers are gone...but maybe when I tear into it deeper I will find some of my good stuff...I found a few of my arrow heads...but in the shed there should be more...we will see...I used to use turtle shells for ashtrays...I love the earth...and the things of the earth..birdnests used to decorate my house...everyone made fun of me but I found a damn man made birdnest Hallmark was tryin to sell for good money... Life's a trip...I had a skull of a cow with horns....and I painted it to represent the first spirits sent to earth...the spirit to teach men to live with the animals...and then I strung leather string from horn to horn with bells and feathers attached...the line running east to west is the right path....the line north to south is the wrong path...and in the four areas is the confused path...so the bells streched between the horns run east to west...and when the you hear the bells ..it calls you back to the right path...yep...I like all that jazz...well kids...I'm gettin' nothin done here...maybe tonight...maybe not... love ya..Cracker