another day..another dollar...maybe today will be better...I think I am ready for a change...this is not workin' to good for me right now...maybe it was just me and maybe it was just yesterday but it felt like I could fly yesterday....form a plan of action here...but it seems that the first thing on my list is to go get back into my own place...thats has just about got to be I'm thinkin'...I had my reasons for what I did....now it's gone past that....now it's a whole new deal....whatever...something has got to give...or I'm gonna be laid up somewhere in a hospital....nut ward....but what I really feel like is givin' my kids the key to my storage shed and tell them to have at it...find a hole and crawl in it...pull the hole in after me....the computer that is the only thing I have has turned ugly on me and seems to be my enemy now...feel like I'm climbing a mountain that there is no top to....and the valleys are so deep and so dark...maybe it's the weather...but I think not...who knows...who cares?...but anyway...anyway...I'd like to feel cheerful and chipper...but to put on that dog would be a lie straight outta hell...cause no I am not...feel like a yo-yo here...blind...hard thing to do...,shadow dance...